Tuesday, January 31, 2006

Not to sleep, perchance not to dream

I am having a killer sleep disorder these days, despite using my apnea CPAP thingy. I seem to wake up every hour or two with regularity, then take a while to get back to sleep. I think I've figured out what's going on. The doc from the sleep clinic told me a few weeks ago that the brain during REM, dream sleep is physiologically indistinguishable from the fully awake brain, so it's very easy for it to wake up during odd dreams. As you, my gentle readers, are aware, my subconscious mind has a habit of screaming at me in the form of dreams. About a week ago, my therapist made some connections about some of the Toby-and-Adam stuff going on in my head, and commented that it would be interesting to see how that would play out in my dreams. The underlying issue is a painful one that goes way, way back into my own early childhood. This current sleep deprivation phase began either the night I spoke with Therapy Guy or the next night. I'm thinking that I subconciously don't want to have any dreams, so I wake up whenever I get into the REM state. Whatever, it sucks out loud.

2 comments:

Just Me said...

Ick. Sorry you aren't getting sleep. Glad you have Therapy Guy to help you get through what might be the underlying cause.

Lunesta works great for me, by the way.

Ann said...

Maybe you should get drunk right before bed.

Seriously, R., that sucks.